Do you have any idea how hard it is to walk around with emotions and reactions to things and yet not know WHY you have them? I do. It's a bitch, let me tell you.
So after a nap and more time exploring my husband, I fell back asleep only to awaken to a servant holding a dress made of gold coins. I was the daughter of the leader of the Atzlanti after all, and was expected to dress like one while in m father's house. The dress irritated me but inside I felt the urge to please him...I needed his approval somehow, so on it went and I made my way to the Basin where my father's re-birthing ritual was taking place. I could see the sacrifice, even though willing, of a human was bothering some of them...especially Wuyi, and knew there would be much I would be hiding from them. As he stepped forward I could see there would be trouble ahead. Wuyi and Rhia were staring at him like they were gonna offer themselves to him right there and as the thought of Rhia and m father crossed m mind I felt my gut twist in revulsion and betrayal. Where in the hell did that some from? I thought. I mean my father is god, and is only a father in the biological sense of the word.
I pushed it down as best I could and we went to a private room for a little question swapping. He told us he would not restore us, that we were to stay here forever and I felt my anger boil. I wanted to LIVE gods damn it all! I want to remember what happened to me and know why I am little more than a ball of rage and pain yearning for someone to give a damn. The others asked questions that I admit I aid little attention to until I heard Rhiannon ask to grace my father's bed.
In that moment I felt a multitude of things happen inside me...the loudest of which was my heart breaking. I felt utterly horrified and betrayed by the one person I let close enough to me to call sister. I felt utter rage at her and my father when he offered to bed her for eternity if she stayed here. I felt like screaming and crying all at once and was powerless to do anything more than walk away...so I did. I walked off not wanting to be anywhere near the whore and Huitzilopotchli. He opened the door as I left and told me not to disappoint him. That I had made him very proud up until now and urged me not to rebel. Well fuck that. I wanted, no needed to get out of here. I couldn't stand it any longer. Before I left I asked why we could not return and after answering another question from him he told us because our story had ended...and if we took back our life then Fate would repeat itself...and countless more would die. Then Ben did something I never expected...he challenged my father. Not in a dual sense but challenged his words. Ben accused him of lying essentially...saying we could change Fate and that it was some other reason Huitzilopotchli wanted us here. He became very angry and ordered us to leave his presence though not the grounds, but stopped Rhiannon and Wuyi. They were to join his bed it seemed...and they were still eager to do so. I called it like I saw it with the utmost restraint I called them whores and left. Screw this shit I was going to find a way out of here with or without them.
After walking about for some time I finally cast my spell and it split to the wall of fire, the carriage we arrived on and the Well-Bronzed-Man who, after some thought, I realized was Painsal a lesser god who grudgingly serves my father. After some talking and pleading I convinced him to help us leave here. I sent Cal for Ben and he returned telling me he, Rupper and a firebird were on their way. Shortly after Rhiannon, Wuyi, and Kelly came up to us. I decided my best bet was to ignore them both. They don't exist cause if they don't then what they did doesn't either. Besides I could not trust myself to not do something I would later regret. Turns out the firebird was a Phoenix Rupper rescued from my father. I stroked the bird being the only one immune to it's fire and immediately felt a kindred spirit in the bird. Rupper will have a friend for life in her. We all climbed in and Painsal set us off rocky at first but it smoothed out eventually and he revealed that though my father understands the importance of sacrifice there was one he could not make...us. He instead offered us eternal opulence rather than kill us and ensure 'Kathy' was not released again. He also told us to surpass my father he would sacrifice us and disapated into embers letting the litter plummet from space towards earth.
We kept falling and Kelly began praying to her mother, trying to take control of the litter and Rupper asked if we had any other ideas to which I could only think of one thing to do as Kelly's prayers seemed to be unanswered. I pulled out my knife and began my own prayer begging my father to forgive my rebellion, promising him I would serve him as the dutiful daughter I once was. I pleaded and begged for him to save my friends, my family and in return I would give him the greatest sacrifice yet, greater even then when I gave him my husband...I plunged my knife into my heart and gave myself to him. I vaguely remember the phoenix flying out of the litter and grabbing it, of Rhia screaming my name, Wuyi hitting points on my body and a surge through me, Ben's face etched in worry as he begged me to live and all I could say before passing out was that I loved him and was sorry. When I passed out I saw my father fighting with thousands of warriors against the darkness. He suddenly sensed me and his head snapped in my direction in surprise as the massive darkness slashed at him and killed him. He had heard but would not be able to help until his rebirth. I awoke briefly to hear Wuyi pleading with me to heal myself but even if I could I simply did not have the will to. I told Cal to find Ben when I noticed he was gone and drifted back to the blackness that was bereft of any complications...
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